A Voice #1

I sincerely believe that all i see and hear has a purpose. I really really do believe that. No matter what i see and hear there's always a voice or emotion that is going on and on in my heart. And i do believe that it isn't just any purpose, it's predestined by God what I will hear see feel do. And i don't want it to just slip by, I want to try my best to make the best of everything i have.

It has been a while, tears had been flowing from my eyes all. As time begin to past, there's so much things that i begin to realise. This earth is full of broken hearted people, and i am one of them. I am really really grateful for having Jesus by my side to help me go through it. I really am. But how self-centered we are sometimes, always thinking about our own hurt and what people had done and why this why that, i admit that i am one of them too.

I want to see a revival in our land, I want people to really really have Jesus as their LORD and Saviour. That Jesus is supreme over all things. I want the people to see how infinitely beautiful God is and His glory that we can never comprehend. I wish that more and more people will feel like that too.

I do not want to keep on dwelling in my problems and sadness anymore, I want to stand beside those who are broken-hearted, hurtful, lonely. I want people to have selfless faith. I truly truly am not perfect in this. But it is my heart's desire to see that happen. I want to tell all those who is holding on the truth and with tears in their eyes that Jesus had never left their side, and Our GOd is a sun and a shield, He bestows honor and glory. No Good thing does He withhold from those who love Him. Most importantly, you are never alone!

From A Puppy..

Few weeks ago, there's this little puppy that was wandering around the condominium that is near my church. The Puppy is really really cute and it's golden brown in colour with "white socks". Some of us being so kind-hearted(or couldn't resist the puppy's charm) took him and put him under the wings of the youth group. We named the puppy Matty in remembrance of a youth intern that came for a year called Matthew McGee.

All of us loves that puppy a lot although some might deny that fact. Matty is just TOOO CUTTEEE! but it is really really a tough job taking care of it, it poops and pees in church and we have to clean it up. Besides that, we need to walk the dog quite frequently too. That's why we even have a "Matty Foundation" as a way to ease the pain of those taking care of Matty. However, I thank God for bringing Matty into our lives. I sincerely believe that there is always a purpose that God let things like that to happen.

I've been walking the dog quite some time, and i can tell you that Matty is one naughty dog. He doesn't follow where you go, he goes to dirty places and the worse is that it actually BITES AND EATS DEAD RAT! It sickens me to see him do that, there was once i got so angry that i pulled so hard that it actually did a somersault in the air. it breaks my heart to see Matty doing things that it shouldn't be doing because i know it isn't good for him. Everytime i drag him away from things that he isn't suppose to touch i know that he won't be happy with me, but everytime i let him go wherever he wants to go he'll end up in trouble. it's just a long long sigghhh..

I really wonder is that how God felt..sometimes.. He created us human beings and we are just like Matty. God knows what is good and bad for us, He is God, He knows it best. we have our own desires. Though God created these desires within us, but often we perverted all these desires. Satan tempts us, yes it is true.. but we are the ones that turn these cannons to the throne God is having and shoot at Him, rejecting God.. We are the ones that keep on rejecting God and eating all the dead rats on the road..

How good it is if we can realize what we are doing sometimes.. How good it is if Matty could understand what i say sometimes.. How good it is that we will follow God all the way and never follow our own lustful desires.. How good it is if Matty just keeps follow me and never runs away to eat rubbish.. God is the creator of the heavens and the earth. ALL things were created by Him and for Him.. God also promised us that all things works for good for those who loves Him and are called according to His purposes.. So don't follow your own desires if we know that it isn't for God's glory. For whether we eat or drink or whatever we do, we must do it for the glory of God.

For me, I would shout to Matty: "MATTY! NO NO NO! COME AND FOLLOW ME.. OBEY ME FOR I KNOW WHAT IS GOOD FOR YOU.. DO YOU KNOW YOU ARE NOT SUPPOSE TO EAT RUBBISH AND EAT DEAD RATS?? THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS BETTER FOR YOU? I HAVE FOOD FOR YOU AND CLEAN WATER TOO.. COME MATTY.. FOLLOW ME AND LISTEN TO ME.."

SO WHAT WOULD GOD SHOUT TO US? LET US THINK AND REFLECT ON IT OURSELVES...

Lessons from the egg and pan of the day:P

I've been reading Clayton King's blog for the pass few days. He is an evangelist if i am not mistaken and preached to many many many people on earth. I am really impressed sometimes that God can actually use such a young kid and groom him to be such a fine man of God. Anyways, a part of it inspires me to begin to look all around me every moment, and to think what is God trying to tell me through it.. So this morning i prayed that God would show me something. I pray that God would give me the right discernment to put in things i should and give me grace to do His will.

When i reach back home today, after getting settled down. I was asked to prepare my own lunch. Usually i do not fry omelet especially if i am just eating sandwiches. but i guess i just can't help it but to give in to my stomach and my desires. so i heat up this tinny little special frying pan. This frying pan is my favorite pan because it always gives me a perfect egg in a perfect circle shape. lol sounds kiddy but it is true.

So i heat the pan up and put in some oil, break the egg and as i try to put the egg onto the pan, i didn't know that it was too hot that i couldn't help it but to drop the whole egg on to the pan. I was like "OH NO!!" i hate it because i lost my perfect egg in a perfect shape and the yolk burst. I became so dissatisfied with it that as soon as i am done frying it, i decided to fry another one just because i am not satisfied not getting that perfect omelet that i was suppose to get by using this pan.

So i did the same thing again and make sure it wasn't too hot. so i break the egg again and put it into a bowl so i won't drop it. I was so sure that it will come out nicely this time. But guesss what? the pan drop from the stove this time and the whole egg spilled because the pan was too small to stable itself on the stand. I became so angry at that pan that i even just turn off the gas and throw the remaining egg on my plate and just throw the pan into the basin with my chopsticks angrily. Back of my mind thinking that, the frying pan is just so stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid and STUPID!(not a good attitude at all).. although everything should be blamed on me, but i was just very dissatisfied because it failed to fulfill it's purpose.. IT FAILED TO FULFILL IT'S PURPOSE..

And it was then, that I came to my own sense and asked myself. Did i fulfill my purpose here on earth?.. I was at school telling my friend that we should not just think about the "not-to-do list" but also the "to-do list"..now that as i think back..hmm..i wonder is it just my tummy or is it God that made me fry that omelet to make me realise or to remind me of something bigger.. How many times had we fail? How many times had we not fulfill our purpose? We are created for a purpose, and how many times we had failed fulfilling that purpose i wonder.. and most importantly.. How would God feel?

I couldn't help it but to feel broken-hearted because of who i am. Not just that i didn't fulfill my purpose here on earth, to do what God wants me to do. There are so many times where i lost my battles. I couldn't even keep myself from doing things God doesn't want me to do. So many time I do not dare to even lift my eyes to God, because i know that, I am failure, I failed to live a life that fulfills my whole purpose here on earth.

But thank God again and again. For His Grace, His Mercy, and HIS LOVE! HIS LOVE! Being a just God He can't just let sin slip away from His eyes. But YES THANK GOD that Jesus LOVE us so much that He WILLINGLY.. HE WILLINGLY came down to bring us hope. No greater love has there ever been. And through that sacrifice He made, we are made right with God. WE are forGIVEn.. And through Jesus, only am i able to live a life that He wants me to live..

We are created for a purpose, We are ALL created for a PURPOSE. Just as that frying pan was suppose to give me a perfect omelet. Just as the keyboard is suppose to let me type in these words. All things are created by Him and FOR Him. We are all created to fulfill a purpose, and i know that purpose is to glorify God. And we are not making God any bigger than He is when we say we glorify God. Who are we to make God any bigger anyways? We are like a telescope trying to see how big God is though we could never fully comprehend His beauty and majesty and glory. We are all CREATED for a PURPOSE. Let us strive to fulfill it. I thank God for His grace and mercy, I pray that we will all able to live a life that is worth the calling, I know that there will be times that we fall, but let us not stop ourselves from getting up again and again and fighting each of our battles even harder.

Lord Jesus, I just pray that You will forgive us when we fail You,.. Truly truly we thank You Lord, for your great love for us. And your grace and mercy too.. I pray that You will give us strength to do Your will.. I pray that we will start fulfilling our purpose here on earth even more as we grow closer to You.. Lord, Here we are, Made by You and FOR You and You alone.. Thank YOu Lord Jesus, In the name of Jesus that we pray.. AMEN